Writer. Poetry & reviews by David C. McLean & texts by his wife Jennifer S. Chesler, including collaborative work with McLean. Chesler writes avant garde, postmodern and innovative texts that explore the social & psychological preconditions of modern life. Collaborative work focuses on comedic philosophical topics combined with deviant sexual expression.
The earth was soft the day Emond Strauss spit twice, but
only one spit hit the dirt, the other time it landed on his shoe. I’ve sold
shoes long enough. But you don’t sell shoes, you dig graves. They wear the
shoes I put them in, my job is more than one. Special shoes for burial, with
laces that withstand the worms, and soles fit for a king. You can imagine my
surprise that the families pay so much attention to these details. I lined one
pair of boots with aluminum, a soldier who walked with the dead. His name was
like mine, but he hadn’t killed anyone. Once he pretended to when no one would
have known the difference. And I would have done the same, pretended to kill
the bodies already dead, kill the ones that are dead, shoot yourself and shoot
Now I am
certain there is nothing more still than the water, he says. There is a feast
of flies on the window, fat lazy ones who don’t buzz. I get the broom and sweep
them off the glass. At the warehouse next door there is a warehouse next door
that has the strongest scent of vinegar. It wafts through the air. That’s the
smell of cacao seeds, he says. Anticipation of the odor made me quicken my step
when I walked past the brick walls. Next to me is an upside-down seahorse made
of wood. Every once in a while two flies whiz past me. I cross my legs, and
there is my root right to the left of me. Each word I speak estranges me even
the sky was blue this afternoon, and that it stayed light until . Some simple sentence
structures say more than epigrams. Click click outside as someone tests the
lock on my door. A bag of bottles bangs against alternate sides of the hallway.
It is possible to imagine the noises as thoughts themselves, moments of silence
interrupted by substitutions for speech. I know where I am, but the sounds come
and go. The closer I get to the violence, the more I am convinced it is drawn
to me, almost to display with pride the jewels of the world, pearls chucked
toward my mouth like candy, as if to say, taste this punch.
Now The Philosophy of Extremism III by Jennifer S. Chesler & myself has reached Google Books. Here it is at this link. Apart from the standard filth, it contains a series of articles/essays by myself about nihilism, teratology, & the writings of Chesler.
The Philosophy of Extremism III, aka Fisting Fiesta, by Jennifer S. Chesler & myself, should reach Amazon in a day or two. Here it is on Barnes & Noble. This books contains filth & teratology, plus all my reviews of Jennifer's writing so far, except the one I just wrote. We are hugely gratified by the unchristian foulness that is this book. It is our best collaborative to date.
Neighbors, non-neighbors, neighbors of neighbors, neighborless non-neighbors, people who ain't my neighbor, people not near a neighbor of mine, neighbors far from my neighborhood, don't ya' think "nay" and "boar" relate to animals more than to where one lives? "Nay," says a horse. That's a whinny, you know. But the boar and the horse are neighbors, in stalls, adjoining one another, not far from the goats. These goats though, they're not real goats. Nah, they ain't the type of goat birthed from other goats. These are cardboard goats, goats painted to perfection on the cardboard, their heads with horns like the devil. Nah, I ain't believin' in any horn-headed evil goats painted on brown board. They ain't no neighbors of mine. "Nay," says a horse. The horse knows too. The horse says she ain't seen no goat neighbors. "They just Mr. Talking Eds," she says, "not like me. I ain't no Mr. Ed. I ain't even talkin'. You's puttin' words into my mouth when I, uh, wanted carrots." But instead of carrot she says "garrote." "You've got to mean 'carrots,'" I say. "Nay," she responds, "'garrote,' … they gonna slaughter me."
My name is Julius. I'm 5-years-old. My dad died a few years ago. He got run over by a car. Last night someone from the Army came over. He told us that my brother got killed in some country. His face was blown off, he said, so we couldn't look at him. That made me sad, about his face being destroyed, probably because we looked alike, and now we don't anymore. I thought it was stupid for him to join the Army. I told him to play Army video games instead, but he wanted to fight in battles, he said, and couldn't do it on a computer screen.
So now I don't have a father or a brother. I have a mom and step-dad. My step-dad is nice, except for when he wants me to clean or take medicine. He told me to go to college instead of joining the military. He said, "Now you see your face can be blown to bits," and shook his head side to side. "But they won't let me look," I told him. "Yeah, good," he said. Then he went upstairs and cried. Sometimes at night he wakes me up because of his screaming. One of his feet had to be cut off during a war in Asia, and, when he dreams about it, he says it's like his foot is being amputated all over again.
Freud said, marvelously: the death drive works in silence in the uproar of Eros. (Lyotard) we have never expected things like resurrection, the slow dive insecurity nipples we are memory wakeful, the esurient apple, the grotesque ghost slow & homeless. in me, Jennifer, is unsubtle answer we are burning. this is emo night, instead of poetry, here is thin skin a night on fire.
memory is pea protein a grotesque, cats made of the absurdity of words & the blood the skull. we have forgotten things like resurrection a memory is, we never knew what vinyl was absences.
under the god the great grotesque, you know it is you i carry like a wait inside me, here i am burning for you flesh & innocent we wear skin like an embarrassing omission like a silence a nighttime, it is only you & me make this relevant make memory skin & a murderer. night waits here for us to live it warm we lie together wrapped in expectation an anxious, your blood is time all of the loving.
mourning comes every corpse that means nothing the empty & the skeleton, fatuous Cadaver & ghost the homely; we have torture to wear it is exciting like night is & you are pinned under me writhing this nighttime i like to hit you & so do you, here is where the dead we are nipples & a slow suicide, nipples & all the rest of the night everywhere, cock is words. here, Jennifer, i have loved you until time returns it is a dreadful imposition, a posit & a pointless, nipples & proper position, the appropriate optimist a corpse is murder & world there, Gus walks night an insolent cat all the gods forgotten the marauders maundering, nausea & the idiot American sentimental makes us want to vomit improbable makes us dust & monsters are hiding in closets forgotten there are gods within us where truth conceals itself to protect like pain & fingernails.
here is this one answer you, Jennifer, the smoke is rising timeless like there were battlefields here already, like there was resurrection, it is just us living again, happiness coincidental is breasts & the silence of knives; i love you, Jennifer, forever, & it is time.
there was cat
there was cat a night to becoming absence we are words on a table a face impossible & the cat walking his tiny pain implacable it was growing a body to fail the abject debility carried like a tail untold, a homeward.
there is these things today it is not a project a prospectus just possible worlds & a little cat he is so fragile trotting through them to see what the best of them might be, being or not being stoic freedom;
it is not a better void to sleep in unreason just what there might be a burgeoning torture there & better not to touch nothing more, not to be being. Rex walks walls a slow mouse, a reflexive ritual listen. there is speech a sidewalk we are to answer apparent, here the cat is not much living left him to fall a kidney failure a lifetime is expenditure, a light like Fafner is flying his glowing wake over the sky night a memory a stretching in us to fiction or to forcing words to breathe again a meaning nothing to explain.
nor is this for this quieting cat he has nightmare to explicate for smaller beasts who do not remember the pathways to where being lives her clearing. the claw is suffering like the fang of a wolf the flesh is not hospitable the victim.
Rex tells me i woke at one a.m. i am changing water too early cleaning the obvious he says that here is cash the unsubtle answer brains here is not the biggest ever & everything really should be judged differentially & with extraordinary strictness some of us are better at things like thinking or deserving to exist. they do not do that here or elsewhere really except where there might be a tower on a mountain an ancient temple in a clearing in a forest where the mad goddess remembers Ethiopia she is gray as once was a memory a cocoon to fallout of happy is our madness & Rex said nothing matters much he had noticed we belong together & world one Clorox resurrection left yet, ants might live where sinks is & Rex felt he said that there was nothing to be different, nothing he needed to forget & love is not some sort of contract, it has no objection to finality to death – it is memory flesh, blood a claw a sort of temporary red.
frankly not happening
If there is a secret, it is this, its own: how does the impossible juxtaposition of intense singularities give way to the register, the recording? (Lyotard)
here it happens we are wrapped in flesh sexless, probably impossible bodies like bumble bees fighting lighttime, here we fall words a murder, a place we have written in. here, Jennifer, incessantly world.
how does the feeling i am poised over you pressing a weight into oblivion the burden borne to squash a night out of thighs timeless? satin staining a skin is blood & lips mistress my material, my matrix, memory is bitch a blood in us touch it my lips is your cunt a mouth a murderer stains & faceless, cunt & cum this coma is, listless is this little living, children, Jennifer victorious we tie us up in our skins outside us, nipples a sufficient love, bands above us bondage love us, time a maybe lover drugs. it is not happening here patent this reverse, a letter written is, time a thing to live us in we have worlds a coil copious, perfect a referral drugged like memory a nipple mother a loveless i cum a time to touch us, look.
what we have forgotten nothing is constructed from hairy zero, not this exigency being is, nowhere is there a more originary zero world; the wait here is seed a paper sweaty semantics madness above us lover – memory their amphetamine highway maybe we are burning here, memory a world. i need you this meaning, Jennifer superior, i have forgotten it, medium idiot fishes is & inside you only meat a me a freedom, being & to be, memory a meaning a motherfucker here world where socks to fit us better forgotten, foggy a probable freedom maybe, world & the turning, it is freaks & their freedom blunt is an innocence to feed us, the dealer he is staring innocent wide an eye is his fridge he stands there a word - he means to empty the whole fucking thing.
here is this, bitch, cats & everything missing, the kids all dressed in tactical absences & everything is insistent as clitoris it is sister mistress we are nipples here live.
it is voluminous a body: "your cost will depend upon your utility rates & use" rating is a memory incredible here we are dancers are. "your cost will depend upon your utility rates & use" there is never this much room yet, love much forever, nothing here left us, lover, to forget, death forever, maybe sex.
light fall between two friends, just the utility
raped from each other, like the terrible black
with which Genet consoled his self,
dusty identity shrugged over his humble
like an old man’s lonely coat.
might have dreamed like him though men are nothing
me, and the tattered flags he draped over them
clumsy as the abandoned bodies of children
souls ever lived in. but i admire his decisiveness –
choice to isolate his tired heart in his young
to drag despite over him cozy
a cloak. and love them as revenge
his corruption he swam in
a chosen lake of conspicuous innocence
deviance. and the old hags wagging fingers,
loved them and would have dribbled
spit as absolution over his sluttish
all the pussy he never pounded
passion was possibly more violent
the arms of some more ambitious
i can almost remember the beaches
the long dead sailors, misery in their
they must have sung once, i suppose,
between people all he could see was love
decay smells sweeter in the next grave;
the dusty young man unwholesome
the wholesome Spanish hills –
another truth the dead know (for Anne Sexton)
and what of them then? they need no blessing but bless. stone lies long so lost and cold, and their stone boats row better than our dinghy against ingrown night. the dead are never old
but one day of love preserved in hopeful children's vinegar. bone fingers groping for the muddy sky under an absent wonderland where life might renew its lease, lands where even fearless death may die.
we touch, we too, as you did, and so many men and women you knew. their voices echo through your words from the body's vicinity, bruised and complete and perfect your lovers' voices whisper like the dead i always heard
earlier. and what of them? my dead generations tardy time misplaced? their faceless stones lie at the bottom of this lunar sea, dusty as me. so i bless them again in their graves' cold homes.
Here are three poems from my antinatalist manifesto, the Black Editions chapbook too much human. & here it is at Lulu. You can also find it on Amazon. nowhere enough
nowhere enough is memory eternity not the genuine retention; we have confabulated days & slow torture, world is what we put there a greasy smudge over the innocence earth is, tiny animals & everything living
nowhere enough is the flesh absent, or adequately present. it is a great gray wall, world is, written over it is lies & gibberish, ideologies where the dead pretend to live
memory is just words & weak its ineffectual not even forever. here was recollection ineffective they confabulated their baby it was sexless their heaven was, blood & dust & things forbidden or permissible, a duty not to be
& memory lives their last idiot religion in case it mattered much – the last believer will crawl an idiot face-fucked fish into his oblivion, their everyday sexless heaven does not matter much; they are cripples with nothing left to touch or love
on the balcony
on the balcony is no big Louise & no angels. there are no more ashtrays, no faces, sweat & a memory
here expands land around us it is a green wait the expectant grass the absent dead that grow the soil like a tiny orgasm
under us could be anything as long as it is possible, logically or metaphysically, but nothing where we are looking for meanings
on the balcony extension & a minuscule dose of being
Here is the blurb by A.D. Hitchin: A beautiful hand grenade of a book that would probably serve as effective population control for the hysterically reactive and weak of heart. Throw into a crowd of SJWs and watch them die. A.D. Hitchin, author of CONSENSUAL
"That was a lovely way of living off of the blood of dead authors. Those that were not published were among the chosen few. We injected their words into our veins, you see. This was not ordinary plagiarism."
"Not by any means, not by any means at all."
"Well, maybe, Yorick, maybe."
"Nor by any other means could one have spliced together fragments of obscure authors."
"There's a doubt in my mind, Yorick, a split in castle moat that lets me in and out, but without deciding the course that would have served me best."
"But we all have indigestion – I mean, indecision."